Reject

Well I went down to Melbourne with Mikey to try and get my closure like a crazy girl.

I saw him and he told me in the first two minutes that it was over. And that was it!
I'm terribly hurt and I think its done my head in because for once, it was all my fault.

I've spent the last three days in Melbourne just sleeping on the cold, hard floor at my friend's place. My friends have been great but I just don't want to see anyone. I know I sound like a sulk. This is my blog and I rant here because I don't like ranting in real life.

I'm going to miss him. I can't believe I was so ignorant. He got too close for my comfort and that scared me shitless which in turn made me do dumb things.

I'm just trying not to think about it but its difficult. My friends say that I'll learn from this to jump into opportunities but I'm not sure that that's what I'll learn from this. I'm going to be even more careful of being hurt. I'll try to keep busy with university, gym and music. I want my mum to come home so I'm not so alone in the big strange house.

I had coffee with a Melbourne artist yesterday and we talked about music and business. We're planning to do a few shows together so hopefully that comes together nicely. Melbourne air/food has made me sick already and last night I was vomiting, had diarrhoea haha and the worst stomach cramps all night. I fly back to Brisbane tonight, can't wait.

Can't wait for when the hurt subsides too.